My hubby left exactly 5AM today.
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As I was writing this post, I have just closed the door of our house. Right at this very moment, tears are dropping at my eyes. I may sound very melo-dramatic, but this blog is almost the window of my soul.
The very reason why I feel this way? My husband has just left for his work in Saudi. The one month allotted vacation for an OFW seems to be very short.
Hay buhay nga naman ng isang pamilyang OFW. Every time he will be returning for work, we never accompany him to the airport. Why? Because I cannot get used in saying goodbyes. A goodbye no matter how frequent it may be is hurting. And I am hurting right now, I know that my daughter Ishi is also very sad (I caught her crying and it is also reflected in her blog post
here)
I have been a wife to an OFW for almost 4 years now, and for that four years my husband would usually have his 1 month vacation in a year. But when reality bites that the vacation is over and he has to move back to his work, that is when the pain begins.
Allan once told me that since I am now a wife of an Overseas Foreign Worker (OFW), I should get used in saying goodbyes. But I never cannot get used in saying goodbyes. Never akong masasanay at magiging comfortable na wala sya by my side. In my mind and in my heart I will be strong and brave, but I will never get used in a life where we are apart.
This year’s vacation is simply memorable for us. Allan spent most of his time bonding with our kids, since most of my time was spent at the office (I only got to have one week for a vacation). My hubby told me that he is indeed very happy since he can really feel the love of my kids. He left the country to work abroad when my little Icko was only 5 months old. He didn’t have the chance to enjoy seeing his only boy crawl, say his first “Papa”, take his first step and literally he was not there to witness his only boy’s ‘first‘. They’ve only got to communicate through the Internet (Thanks to the wonders of technology). During his first vacation, Icko will always be crying to no end every time his Papa will hug and kiss him. But this vacation is simply awesome, Ishi, Icko and their Papa seems to be all glued up. Our family has created a bond that is full of love and security.
Before my husband left this morning, he kissed and hugged my Ishi and Icko, I can see his misty eyes. Putting a brave front and making me laugh, but I know him better. Before he bid me goodbye, he give a reassuring hug and kiss. A hug so tight I can almost feel his heartbeat. A kiss so warm that I don’t want to let go. I know that he will keep his promise, as I’ve said, I know we will be together forever SOON and we are already on the way there, since we have already taken the first step.
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This vacation is just a start of our long term plan and our quest to be together forever. We are able to draft our action plans towards our journey for a better life together. In time I know that gone will be his OFW days. I am very positive that God will help us in this journey which we have already started (which I will also be sharing to you in my succeeding posts).
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oh mommy cielo…i am so sorry that you have to go through this on mother’s day…anyway, my heart and my sentiments are all with you right now…and just imagine me hugging and saying…it’s gonna be OK and soon again you will be together…
but still, i wish you a happy mother’s day….
love,
pinay mommy
nakakalungkot namn….my eyes are misty right now din..hirap ng buhay ng OFW and family ano?pero,you are brave and strong…and your hubby is proud to have you
super blis nga ng one month…me too,i always hate to say goodbye…
laging may iyakan sa airport tuwing iiwan ko sila s pinas..
anyways…cheer up girl!ang happy moms day to you.
a big hugggggggggg!
ghee
hi mom ruby, thx for being a friend from a distance, i appreciate it a lot.
I can only imagine your sadness when he left, sometimes life does seem unfair, but things happen for a reason…
a Happy Mother’s day to you and your mom
hi ghee, i know that feel the same way too, kasi kagaya ka din namin malayo sa p
hi thess,
i am holding into it that everything happens for a reason. In time I know we will be together as a family.
Mahirap talaga pag nawalay ka sa mga mahal mo sa buhay pero tiis lang talaga ang kailangan. I gathered kinukuha kau ng hubby mo! Am I right?
Magkakasama din kayo soon…
Happy Mother’s Day to you!!
Belated Happy Mother’s day!
Mahirap talaga mahiwalay sa isang mahal sa buhay, parang laging first time diba?
Di bale, mabilis naman ang takbo ng oras. Before you know it, pabalik na ulit si hubby.
Hi Cielo,
I know it’s really hard to say goodbye.I feel the same way when my hubby needs to go on a trip.
I do wish you strength and also a Happy Mother’s day too.
I have a tag for you here – Tag #1 Time Capsule
Cheers!
Hi, cielo! Got here thru Rachel’s site. Your story bring a thug in my heart. I know how hard it is to say “good bye”.
And your daughter, I feel for her cause I practically grew up without a dad… only my mom when were growing up.
Anyway, belated happy mother’s day!
Nakakaiyak naman ito at nakakalungkot.
umalis na pala si papa
kakalungkot naman… pero kaya mo yan ate.. kami din ganyan kapag dumadating at umaalis si papa
yngat po lagi
Hugsss for you Mommy Cielo!
Hi Ceilo, would you like to exchange links in my blogs? If you are interested, please let me know so that I will add you soon. Thank you and have a great day.
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mommy cielo hi. that is exactly the reason why i’m hesitant to let my hub work abroad. eversince we’ve known each other, we’re inseparable and i can’t imagine myself away from him for such a long time..di ko yata makakaya.
alam kong ngayon lang yan ate.
makakasama mo rin po sya..
malapit na..
tc! mwah!
nakakalungkot naman to.. nakakarelate ako.. parang gusto kong maiyak ngayon.. be strong lang po.. not only for yourself kundi para na rin sa mga kids nyo..
hi agring,
family status kmi sa saudi kaya lang ayaw namin ni allan kasi mahirap ang magpalaki dun ng kids na sanay na tlg sa pinas ang galawan.
Thx for wishing me well
fionski, that’s true sis, no matter how many times na syang umalis seems to be always d first time ang hurt
hi pinay jade, thx for the moral support, i need it this time
OFW din ang aking Ama. Ang naaalala ko e mas gusto pa nyang mag bus nlang sya paalis kaya mahal ang magpa gas ng jeep galing pang probinsya… kaya diko naranasan ang hatid sundo sya sa erfort.
pero ngaun andito na kami, ako na halos ang taga sundo at hatid sa erfort (huhuhu) me halong ingget! hahah bakit sila laging nauwi, ako hinde! hehe!
Be strong.
I saw his comment, he’s so sweet.
So stray strong.
TC
Saying goodbye is never easy. I understand how sad you must feel. My parents are here on vacation but soon they will leave and go back to the States. They are still here but I feel sad thinking that they will leave in a few weeks time.
hi! cielo! It is only now that I scrolled down to this post and I can just relate totally. I felt that way when my hubby left for the UK. luckily for me, he did not go home to the Philippines and then come back here – we joined him within less than a year of arriving here. he said that he would not have been able to bear coming back here and leaving us for the second time.
you will soon realize your dream to be together. just continue to pray and trust the Lord and to constantly work towards your goal.
hi cielo thanks for the visit and adding my blog – being a wife, being a mom. naiiyak akong natatawa. naiiyak ako because i know the feeling. you’re lucky you got one month to be with your husband. mine only visited us for 16 days. we’ve been in the same goodbye situation for five times now, pero mag 2 years pa lang syang maging ofw this year. he comes home during summer and christmas.
natatawa ako kasi we have the same fate and ung pag alis ng hubby natin halos pareho. may 10 umalis hubby ko eh.
blogging has been my outlet.
milet
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oh and before i forgot i read that you are scouting for a property, will you be using the pagibig pop program for that ? or have you heard of the POP program ?
hi! this is a late comment for your post, but i just want you to know that i am your silent reader, the time that im on my lowest when my husband leaves for abroad,thats also the time that i come across with your blog.honestly i was crying as i was reading hehehe! i feel your pain and i am glad that i find your blog and be an inspiration to me.
i dont know how to exhange link coz im one of those who are trying to learn,though i was blogging since 2006 pero hindi ko pa talga kabisado lahat.in other words wala akong alam.hehehe!
you can visit me at my blog http://wifely-chores.blogspot.com/
tanx!